Tuesday, November 22, 2016

A visit on an anniversary

I woke up this morning and remembered that I had a dream regarding Genesis. There was a young boy in the dream maybe about D's age and he was holding a newborn baby girl. This boy somehow knew my family and looked at me while holding this baby saying "(baby's name that I can't remember) was born just after Genesis died." I remember thinking "um okay..." Then this boy just decides to talk to me about Genesis which surprised me because I didn't even think he knew about her. He asked me nonchalantly "What were her interests and likes in life?" I didn't respond right away because his question surprised me. He spoke of her as if she had lived outside of me. After a long pause I replied "Well, she loves her family. She has a very strong sense of family." Of course I knew that because of all the signs Ive gotten from her and how she lets me know she is around. Then I continued "I don't know what her interests and likes were because she never got a chance to live life." Then later on in my dream I felt like her spirit was trying to make contact. I could feel her presence. I felt this weird feeling of like an electrical current run through me. And that was pretty much my dream. 

As I was telling my husband about my dream this morning he tells me he had a dream too. Told me he and I were in my car and I was driving. When suddenly I got this shocked look in my face and basically froze while pushing on the gas pedal. He asked me what was wrong and I told him I saw something. Something having to do with like a spirit or something. Although he couldn't recount the dream 100% with all the details he thought it had something to do with Genesis. Maybe I saw her or something. 

I found it a little surprising that we both had a dream about Genesis. 

Then it hit me.

Today of all days it is very significant that we both had a visit from Genesis in our dreams.

10 years ago today I found out I was pregnant with my first child. With Genesis. Wow. 

Today my BLM new year begins its 10th year.

A decade. 

No wonder my girl decided it was an important time to visit and let me know she is near. 

And now I basically countdown the days till her birthday. 

My god. Where did 10 years go.

I would have a 10 year old. 

I miss her just as much now than ever before.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

A Winner

A couple days ago I entered a raffle to win a gorgeous carved goddess. She's made of Rainbow Obsidian. (You know I love rainbow anything lol) I bought two tickets and I had to choose a number between 1 and 50 for each ticket. I don't have lucky numbers or anything so I had to think about which numbers I would pick. 16 came to mind first because of Genesis' birthday. Then I thought of Exodus. I said, well she didnt really have a birthday because she was never born, so what day do I associate wit her. The day I found out I was pregnant with her, which was mothers day 2013. Which happened to be 5/12/13. So I picked 12. After I picked it, I had a very certain feeling that Exodus was going to have a hand in me winning this statue. I can't even explain how I knew it. I just had a feeling. I actually visualized myself winning. But at that point I thought it was just positive thinking. Well, lo and behold the next morning I find that they did in fact pick 12, Exodus' number, and I won. I could not believe it. Im still stunned. 

In other news, last night I had a dream about Genesis and Exodus. Together. I saw them as small infants. Maybe about a year old maybe two. Unfortunately they were not alive. They were laying in bed with me as I had N on the other side of me. (sounds really morbid I know) and N was asleep and someone else was in the room with me but I don't know who. They said don't move the babies (Genesis and Exodus) because it would tickle them. I accidentally moved them and they started giggling and kicking. But as soon as I stopped moving so did they and they went back to being dead. Im telling ya, I can't wrap my head around this weird dream. It happened a few times where I would move and they would start giggling and kicking and rolling over. The whole time I didn't really get a good look at them. I think I saw the one closest to me a little better but Im not sure. They never opened their eyes. And I don't know who was who. I remember they had light skin and dark hair. The girl I saw better had curly hair, and it was somewhat short. I woke up and felt really sad and a little freaked out by my dream. Im not sure what it means if anything. But one thing is for sure, I def think my girls visited me and thats why I had a dream about them. Its the first dream Ive ever had that they were both in the dream together.

Oh, and last night we saw a shooting star. Although I'm not sure if thats the accurate term. Meteor? Is that it? It was very low in the sky, and it lasted a while. We saw it white at first then some green flames before it disappeared just over our home. It was D's first shooting star. I don't think any of the other rainbows actually saw it. We were in the car and just arriving back home from a wedding we attended.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

My BLM new year

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