Tuesday, January 5, 2016

The birthday that never was

This absolutely speaks to me. The fact that I am pro life should really have a bigger effect on my thoughts on Exodus. The photo above stopped me in my tracks. Even though exodus didn't make it far enough to actually look like a baby that's what she would have become had she made it further along. 

I'm getting more and more comfortable including exodus and saying I have 6 children. There are still times it feels a little alward or I stop and think for a minute, but I mention and include her more often than not. 

As many of you know, I am adopted. In recent years I have had the priveledge of finding my biological family. I have an uncle on my dads side of the family who contacted me in the last couple days about a family tree he was working on. He wanted to know if I wanted to be a part of it. I agreed and he acknowledged it might be "complicated". I mean not only is there the issue of biwhether logical family vs adoptive but also about the number of children to include for me. I decided to include all the kids. Then came a question I don't quite know the answer to. He asked me what Exodus' birthday was. This was a tough one. She wasn't really born. And the day I found out I was pregnant, although it was special since it was Mother's Day, certainly didn't feel like it should be her birthday. So I decided it was the day I lost her. That would be May 13th, 2013. 

Although her due date would have been in January....She would have been 2 this month. Can you believe that? So it's weird because with the birthday I gave she would be going on 3 years this coming May... So as you can see it's still complicated. 


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