Last week a friend of mine told me about a contest being held by the Facebook page for Return To Zero (a lifetime movie staring Minnie Driver, about stillbirth) I thought 'what the heck have I got to loose' and decided to go ahead and enter. Though mind you I figured there was not a chance for me to ever win. I even told this friend "dude, if I win, it has got to be Genesis doing."
Well, you guessed it. I got this notification on Sunday:
I am one of the winners! I can't believe I'm going to a red carpet premiere! Unbelievable! I will most certainly post all about it after I go. The premiere is this Thursday evening! I cannot wait!
I am worried though about crying like a baby through the movie and of course if Genesis comes up in convo I'm sure the tears will flow. Somehow I need to keep it in check.
In my journey in life I have had many roles. Single woman. Then married. Then forced to be a single mom and then a single mom by choice. And now Im back to being married. I'm am a mama of 4 beautiful children. 3 I hold in my arms one I hold in my heart. 2007 was the year my life changed when my first daughter was stillborn. Little did I know my world as I knew it would never be the same.
This is a list of people regularly mentioned in my blog:
Mr. M aka Marlon~ My husband
Genesis~ My stillborn daughter
Exodus~ My daughter we lost as a chemical pregnancy
D~ My first son and rainbow #1
G~ My third daughter and rainbow #2
D2~ My second son and rainbow #3
N~ My fourth daughter and rainbow#4
Abilla~ My grandmother
What is a Rainbow Baby?
It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. Itmeans that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darknessand clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.
What's a BLM?
BLM stands for Baby Lost Mama.This means that a woman has lost at least one child, weather it be a pregnancy, infant or older child loss. For more information click on the International BabyLost Mother's Day button below.
The Loss Of A Child
"A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. There is no word for a parent who loses a child. That's how awful the loss is." ~Ronald Reagan