After Genesis died I was determined that I was going to have another baby one way or another. As I've mentioned before I insisted on finishing the nursery though I was no longer pregnant. Even after D was born I bought little girl clothes for the daughter I hoped I would have one day.
Another one of the things I did in hopes of having a daughter was buy this:
This is a handmade reversible doll. One look on one side and another on the other side. I saw this online and just knew I had to have it for my daughter. I had it sitting in a box for the longest and now it's one of G's favorite dolls. Although it was not bought for Genesis, I still think if her when I see this doll. G has insisted on sleeping with it pretty much every night.
And I saw this message today on Instagram:
I think it is important to focus on the rainbow but never to forget the storm. The storm gave you the strength to stay long enough to see the rainbow. And without the storm there would be no rainbow. I enjoy the rainbows but look back at the storm and always remember.
In my journey in life I have had many roles. Single woman. Then married. Then forced to be a single mom and then a single mom by choice. And now Im back to being married. I'm am a mama of 4 beautiful children. 3 I hold in my arms one I hold in my heart. 2007 was the year my life changed when my first daughter was stillborn. Little did I know my world as I knew it would never be the same.
This is a list of people regularly mentioned in my blog:
Mr. M aka Marlon~ My husband
Genesis~ My stillborn daughter
Exodus~ My daughter we lost as a chemical pregnancy
D~ My first son and rainbow #1
G~ My third daughter and rainbow #2
D2~ My second son and rainbow #3
N~ My fourth daughter and rainbow#4
Abilla~ My grandmother
What is a Rainbow Baby?
It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. Itmeans that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darknessand clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.
What's a BLM?
BLM stands for Baby Lost Mama.This means that a woman has lost at least one child, weather it be a pregnancy, infant or older child loss. For more information click on the International BabyLost Mother's Day button below.
The Loss Of A Child
"A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. There is no word for a parent who loses a child. That's how awful the loss is." ~Ronald Reagan