the love I have for her. If this is me getting over it. Over her. Forgetting. Of course I know thats not true. I could never forget her. You are never truly over having to have part of you die. But these thoughts sometimes come to mind. Although the opposite is true as well... our love is not measured in the amount of tears that fall. Its confusing. There are no rules. Only feelings. Still... Im glad I don't cry as much but Im glad when it does happen. Glad for the release. It really does help.
It really does typically get harder this time of year. Occurrences like the one I had tonight are more frequent than the rest of the year. Mr.M was such a sweetheart about it. He let me talk about her. He listened. No judgements. Just a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. He comforted me and was rubbing my legs to help ease the pain and let me know he was there. He is so so caring. I cannot put into words how much that means to me. The poor thing was very tired after a long days work and he wanted to go to bed but I wanted to stay up and cry a little longer. You know, to let it all out and compose myself again. I told him to go to bed and that I would be there shortly. Instead he stayed up with me till I was good and ready to go to bed. Such a sweetheart.
God I love that man. And he is everything I have ever needed and more. Which sort of leads me to a new topic. Mr.M. You have probably figured out from what I just mentioned that Mr.M and I have moved in together. This happened about 2 months ago and it has been wonderful. The rainbows have adjusted beautifully as well and we are a little family now. The kids even call him "daddy" now. Mr.M and I plan to marry soon. No date circled on the calendar as of yet, but we are taking the steps to move in that direction. I would expect it to happen some time next year or early 2014. We shall see how it all pans out.
So with that I think its time for me to formally introduce to you the love of my life, my better half, the future father to my children and future husband. So from here on forth I will no longer refer to him as Mr.M. Mr.M's real name is Marlon.