Monday, June 27, 2011
My first niece is making her grand appearance into the world today. My sister-in-law's c-section is scheduled for noon today. What a mix of emotions. I am very excieted to be an aunt again and to my first ever niece. Im headed towards uncharted territory here. Then not to mention that they choose to have a c-section... my doula alarm is going off in my head ha ha! But that is neither here nor there. It is their choice to make, not mine. I however an very anxious that she is a girl. Nothing personal... all girl pregnancies do this to me, not just theirs. It's just a reminder of the pregnancy I had with my first girl that will never result in me being able to take her home with me. It's still a sore spot for me: even 4 years and 2 rainbows later. It's still there. I dont think it will ever really go away 100%. But for now I cope. I think its safe to say they are brining home a baby girl, though as we all know anything can still happen. I truly hope the best for them and pray that everything goes smoothly.