I just need to vent here for a minute. This post isnt about any one person in particular... just a bunch of people. People that are close to me, people that aren't close, family, friends, strangers, BLM's and non BLM's. Its pretty much about everyone.
So we all know what its like to be a BLM. And for those of you that were like me that lost your first and only child, you know how badly you would rather have a crying baby than an infinitely sleeping one. I am sick and tired of moms complaining about their babies. I cant tell you how many times a day I hear someone say or read online how "bad" their baby is. They post/say things like "Im so tired...the baby kept us up again last night" or "Im so tired of her/him crying..." or "time to get away from baby..." I will be the first one to tell you that I get it. I get being tired. I get being overwhelmed sometimes. I get being sleep deprived. Im a single mom and I probably have it much harder than these people I hear saying that. (though I must say Im only going off an assumption from seeing that most if not all are in a two parent household) But the difference is I rarely complain about it. I am so glad that I am actually going through it.
Because when Genesis died I had no baby keeping me up at night. I slept soundly. I wasnt overwhelmed by a crying baby, I had silence at home. I didnt have to spend hours putting a baby to bed, I had free time to do whatever I wanted. I could live my life and go out at the drop of a hat if I wanted to because I had no child to find a baby sitter for. What I would have given to be able to be a sleep deprived mother to a living daughter. So now that I have been and continue to go through the everyday things of being a mother to living children I rarely complain that my child is... well, living. I treasure it.
But it bothers me even more so when I hear BLMs say these things. Once again, I know where they are coming from, I do. And Im not talking about saying it once in a while when you just about at your wits end and frazzled. Im referring to the people that I have crossed paths with that I hear/read saying this on a regular everyday basis. One of my BLM friends likes to refer to these types of people as "forgot where I came from BLMs" because they went through not having a child here to take care of. And now that they have 1 or 2 or however many they are complaining about it. They wanted a rainbow or 2 or 3, they got it/them and now they are complaining about it.
Maybe its only human to complain every once in a while....but like I said this isnt the "once in a whiles" Im talking about. But I cant help but to stop and think every time I hear/ see this and think that they already have a zero maintenance baby who no longer is here... I dont know... I really dont know what more to say about this... Like I said, its just a rant and I wanted to get my frustrations out... so there you have it. Its out.