Whats sad is that this is not the first time my relatives have hurt me like this. When I was pregnant with Genesis I would get friendly calls all the time like "how's baby doing?" or "you know if you change your mind, Ill keep the baby" type calls. After Genesis died there were no more calls. No calls even to say sorry or how are you doing. No cards in the mail. No nothing. It was as if it never happened. 8 weeks after Genesis died I went on a road trip and made a stop at a relatives house that was on the way to where we were headed. I had on my Genesis bracelet (you can see a picture of it in the photo gallery tab) and a relative saw it and asked what it said. I replied that it said Genesis. She was a little confused. She asked me why I had that. I told her it was the name of my daughter. There was a long pause and she had this look of utter confusion on her face and with almost a sound of sarcasm she said "your daughter?" It was such a shock to me that people already didnt care so all I could do was look to the ground to avoid crying and say "even though she wasnt born alive she is still my daughter." And nothing more was said.
I understand that I guess this is the "norm" among non baby lost people but when it comes to my family it's even worse. Not only do they not acknowledge Genesis but then they mock me for doing it. I invited another close family member to go attend the OC Walk To Remember with me and she had the audacity to laugh at me and say "uh, I dont think so." I dont have the words in me to describe this kind of pain. Not only do I live with the day to day suffering that I have to live my life without one of my children but then people, and mostly my own family, add so much more pain than I need by not supporting me. *sigh* Im gonna go cry now.